My Father’s Eyes

If I were trying to describe the term “Kindred Sister”, I would think of her. Not because we are exactly alike, but because our hearts speak fluently with one another.

And I’m so blessed to have her here, sharing with you. Friends, would you please welcome Karrilee?

My dear sister friend, take it away:

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I am a child of the 70s… raised simultaneously on that era’s country music and shameless pop music. The former came blaring from a radio in my father’s morning routine… the latter – well, came from my older sisters’ room mostly!

As a writer, even way back then… it was the lyrics that pulled me in.
I just loved the story told in the span of a song.

As a teenager of the 80s, you couldn’t keep me away from the tortured love songs and rock ballads of my generation!  While not raised in a church-going home, I was still somewhat innocent and often, I would sing out with my whole heart, words I did not understand – but Oh how I FELT them!  The intensity… the brokenness and desperation… the romance and desire…

I must have been around 16, when somehow I ended up with “The Collection” – a cassette tape by Amy Grant.  I have no idea who planted it in my room (thanks)… I had no idea who this artist was, but I played the tape over and over (and over and over) and OH how those lyrics pierced my still-unsaved heart!

God was drawing me! I loved every song… but the one that I would blast with my headphones on was “Father’s Eyes”…

I may not be every mother’s dream for her little girl
And my face may not grace the mind of everyone in the world
But that’s all right as long as I can have one wish I pray
When people look inside my life, I want to hear them say
She’s got her father’s eyes, her father’s eyes
Eyes that find the good in things, when good is not around
Eyes that find the source of help, when help just can’t be found
Eyes full of compassion, seeing every pain
Knowin’ what you’re going through and feeling it the same
Just like my father’s eyes, my father’s eyes, my father’s eyes
Just like my father’s eyes
And on that day when we will pay for all the deeds we have done
And when you’re called to stand and tell just what you saw in me
More than anything I know, I want your words to be
She had her father’s eyes, her father’s eyes
(Father’s Eyes by CHAPMAN, GARY WINTHUR)

You may listen to the song HERE.

But here’s the deal… I didn’t really ‘get’ it.  I didn’t know who the Father was… and while I love my own Dad… well – let’s just say at that time, we didn’t really have that kind of connection!

Oh, and I didn’t really get that whole second verse… seriously – as in – Did. Not. GET. It.

But there was just something about such an intense love and such a desire to be seen and to be transparent enough that people would see beyond me that had captured my heart.


                                                                    My Daddy & me, circa 1992

Then, at 21… I met Jesus… I fell in love… with Jesus but I held the Father at bay – a bit unsure of how He really felt about me… (as if I or any of us can separate Them, I know!)  

I got super close with Jesus… and the Holy Spirit! I was all about those Guys!

We were TIGHT

A decade later… Father God began to woo me. He won my heart… He had to fight for it… I held Him at arm’s length – but oh the joy when I finally gave up and gave in!

This song… this prayer… some 25 years later, this is still my prayer today…
to Speak Life… to Be Love… to Shine On…
to have eyes that find the good in things…
that find the Source of help…
that are full of compassion…

Just like my Father’s eyes!

Speak Life. Be Love. Shine On.

~Karrilee~

Karrilee is a Wife, a Mother, Daughter, Sister, Friend…
She is a Writer, Reader, Pray-er, Photographer, Beach Lover, Laugh Seeker, Life living person, serving God to the best of her ability! She lives in the PNW with her husband and nearly grown girlie and is passionate about diving in deeper with the Lord and inviting others to discover how personal, intimate, abundant His Love is for them! Her life message?
Speak Life. Be Love. Shine On.
She loves to share what is on her heart and what the Lord is speaking to her at: http://abidingloveaboundinggrace.blogspot.com

How about you, friend? When did God begin to woo you? Have you given your all to Him? What song are you striving for? We’d love to hear.

Thanks for sharing your time with us.

Simply striving,

Nikki (and Karrilee)

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31 thoughts on “My Father’s Eyes

  1. Love you, Karrilee!!!!! This is such a great testimony 🙂 God had been calling me for years, but being from an atheist family and dating men who were strongly against Him didn’t make it easy to answer His call. I still remember the first times my husband and I attended church together while dating and how we would sing “This is the Feast of Victory for our God…” over and over, because it would get stuck in our heads after service. Will always love that hymn, because it helped weave the three of us – my husband, me, and God – together so tightly! Happy Monday, friend!!!

    • Vanessa – don’t you just love how He calls us… ever so gently and patiently and consistently? I love that you – like me, it sounds – fell in love with the Lord at the same time you fell in love with your husband! The power of song amazes me – and to be bonded together in song is such a gift!

  2. I loved your testimony. When i first got saved, I used to listen to Amy Grant in my room as well and remember this song. I have had a hard time accepting Father’s love for me. I can’t say that I have arrived just yet. But I’m a little further along in my journey and hope to arrive this side of heaven so that I can fully enjoy all that that means. One song that grips my heart these days is by Steffany Frizell of Bethel Music, “He Knows Me”. I can’t listen without crying. That the God of the Universe KNOWS ME! What? You can listen here if you’d like: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVVlMQved8k. I would say this song is drawing me into the heart of the Father in this season. Love you my friend.

      • No surprise here, Barbie – but that is one of my FAVORITE Bethel Songs! My favorite line? It’s the one at the end… “You memorize me” – oh my… that one has me undone every time!

        So glad that the Father is wooing you in this season… He can be trusted… and oh the release and the joy when you fully let Him in! Praying with you for breakthrough, my friend!

  3. I love that song! I think I was about 17 when I first heard it and it really pierced something in me too. I had that very cassette tape! And I think that musically speaking, we are going to be likethis, friend.

    Signed,
    Another child of the 70s and unapologetic lover of shameless pop music & soaring rock ballads

  4. How I love a good “wooing” story! And Our Father is certainly gifted in that area. 😉 this was a beautiful testament to the use of others, in our lives, to help us see that Gos is there and that he so wants us to be tight with Him, too.

    • Ashley – thanks so much for stopping by! I just love how He has been after our hearts from day one! He is so consistently pursuing us… so thankful He captured my heart… and yours, too!

  5. I loved this Karrilee! Thank you for sharing. I really loved this…”Father God began to woo me. He won my heart… He had to fight for it… I held Him at arm’s length – but oh the joy when I finally gave up and gave in!” He began to woo me just a little over two years ago and I’m so glad I “gave up and gave in!”
    Nikki – thank you for having Karrilee share here.
    Blessing to you both.

  6. Each piece I read from you just brings me that much closer to your heart. I love this piece here > But there was just something about such an intense love and such a desire to be seen and to be transparent enough that people would see beyond me that had captured my heart. < There's just so much there, so much of a desire to be known by God and be in relationship with Him. This is a wonderful testimony of calling. Thank you so much for opening your heart and sharing this here.

    • Rebekah – thank you so much for stopping by! I truly treasure your heart and love that you so get me! So glad that He has pursued us each and brought us together! SOON – in real life, my friend! We MUST make that happen!

  7. I have loved Amy Grant ever since I first heard her sing… and I love that you chose this song. So grateful friend that you felt Him “wooing” you and that you felt drawn to Him. So grateful that you know your Father’s Love.

    • Thank you my friend! Spending time visiting with you today was good for my soul! You are another one who I think of when I think of ‘kindred’… oh my – the thought of you and Nikki and I all in the same space… Lord – let it happen somehow, someday! Love you!

  8. “The Collection” cassette tape by Amy Grant was given to me by my first crush (he was much older) the night before he left for boot camp. I listend to it all the time because he gave it to me but I didn’t get it either until much later. What a blessing that the Father uses all different types of things to continue to draw us to him.

    • Oh Amy – I love that! He truly does use ALL things together for our good… and music is such a powerful tool! So thankful that He planted seeds through that tape for you, as He did for me!

    • Dolly – it is always such a blessing to hear from you! I love that the Lord even reminded me of this song and the story behind it… I had plans to write on something totally different! Thankful for you, my friend!

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