I had another post lined up for today. By that I mean written out in my head waiting for me to sprawl on the keyboard…
It included a song that makes my soul sing. Every time I sing it, tears well.
Then “life” happened. And it never got out in time. I’m hoping it comes around again soon.
You see, I have this thing…an agreement with Him that I will share my heart in real-time here for His glory. This life I live? It’s His story in me. It’s not mine. And I’m learning that story doesn’t always entail an easy post laced with pearls. No.
Because Life as we know it is often messy. Painful. Scary. Dark.
I’m no exception. Why should I be.
Does it mean I don’t have enough faith? Does it mean He doesn’t love me like I think He does? Does it mean I’m failing at this thing we call life?
It means just what He said it means:
- This world is not my home. I’m on foreign land; it’s bound to be uncomfortable. Philippians 3:20
- This world is filled with trials and sorrow. BUT TAKE HEART — He has overcome it. John 16:33
Friends, we live on a battle ground. And we’re at war with the worst kind of enemy.
One of his greatest defenses is trying to make us forget that. This enemy takes invisible to a whole new level.
So some days I don’t smell the roses. I sense fear and taste hurt instead which helps me see I’m back on the front lines. And that’s where I remind myself the promise He gave us long before I put on the armor:
Take heart…He’s overcome.
And this thing I’m going through that tries to steal every subconscious breath — it’s fleeting.
I’ve been on the front lines for more than a month now. And friends, can I be honest? I’m tired. I’m hoping I get the call to fall back soon.
But if I don’t, that’s okay. He’ll hold me up. I may get pressed but I won’t be crushed. I may get struck down, but I won’t be destroyed. He’s got me.
And I’ll believe that even when all hope feels lost. I’ll cling to that promise even if I feel alone.
He’s got me.
Father, I’m so honored to wear Your colors. I’m humbled You’ve allowed me to be on the front lines for Your glory and will do my best to keep my eyes on You. The One who’s already overcome. For I know You’ll show me the way Home. Lord, as I walk this battlefield now wounded and weary, may I ask for one thing? My Jehovah, please steady my heart…
This has become my battle cry as of late: Father, steady my heart. And I wanted to share a song that expresses it better than I ever could. You may have heard this on the radio, but have you ever stopped to read the lyrics?
May they provide you a bit of relief as they have me.
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Steady My Heart ~ Kari Jobe
Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy
Why is pain a part of us
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much
But You’re here
I know I can trust You
Even when it hurts
Even when it’s hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars
You steady my heart
I’m not gonna worry
I know that You got me
Right inside the palm of your hand
Each and every moment
What’s good and what gets broken
Happens just the way that You plan
And I will run to You
You’re my refuge in Your arms
And I will sing to You
Cause of everything You are
You steady my heart
How about you, friend? Has He steadied your heart lately? How has He healed your scars? I’d love to hear.
Thanks for sharing your time with me.