After fulfilling my dream of becoming a wife, I had nine years to decide what kind of mother I was or was not going to be. I spent those years wisely. Observing, making mental note of what I would or would not do. Oh yes, I was going to be the best. mother. ever.
Let me be the first to tell you, homeschooling was on my not-going-to-do list. It’s now become proof that God truly does have a sense of humor.
You see, I neglected to consider some key factors while creating my mother equations:
- God has made each child unique with individual needs He has asked me to meet while in my care.
- God loves my child more than I ever could. And knows what’s best farther than I can see.
We all have heard “He broke the mold when He made ____” and I’m certain it’s true with each and every child I meet.
My oldest son is no exception as he has busted every frame I had wrapped around him.
Friends, my son loves to learn. He’s good at it, too. Even at the age of four he’s methodical, extremely inquisitive, has to know the how and why every. single. time. And he’s been begging to go to school since he was two.
To say I wrestled with God on this would be an understatement. It wasn’t a part of my master plan. Yes, my son reads chapter books, writes his own stories, and meets every marker used to gauge kindergarten readiness with flying colors. Except age.
He’s still too young I would tell myself. I don’t want to force him to grow up too fast. We’ll just coast this year and do another year of preschool and he’ll simply be more than ready next year. Yes, that’s what we’ll do. This can work with my plan.
But it wasn’t working with His plan. And I’m learning I need to let go and let Him take control.
To say He’s given me the writing on the wall seems like an understatement.
And I’m going to let go and let Him lead the way.
Starting with kindergarten.
Starting with homeschooling.
What He’s showing me is I’m not making my son grow up too fast. I’m simply giving him an opportunity to thrive.
God has given him a desire to learn and who am I to stand in the way.
Sorry I’ve been kind of quiet here lately as I was preparing to be obedient today and create a platform for my son to grow, friends.
It’s taken me awhile to get my ducks in a row.
Can I share with you what I’ve learned from this experience so far?
- He was right when He told me to want Him more and less will want me. It’s proving to be the solution to all my troubles.
- Leaning on Him through this has made it so easy. Why, He even took care of the expense of it all (another post perhaps?)
- I can do all things through Christ who truly does strengthen me.
- Homeschooling is so not what I thought it was. Wow.
- I thought homeschooling would cause me to be more controlling–which is something I struggle with (again, another post). But I was wrong. It’s completely out of my control as I need to lay it in His hands every single day.
Father, when I look at my son, I see You. Thank You for giving me the opportunity to be a presence in his life as he discovers what plan You have for him. Prepare the way for my child, Lord. Reveal Yourself to him in fascinating ways. Captivate his heart. Whisper love in his ear when he feels alone. Guide him on the right path when he is faced with choices. Keep the spark of curiosity alive in him as he expands his perceptions. Oh Father, stay in his sights…
Use me in whatever way you can, Abba. Keep my heart pliable so I can conform to whatever You need me to do for my son. To You be all glory and honor in my family, Lord. All that we have is because of You, Jesus…
Jesus, thank You for changing my master plan and making it bigger and better than I ever dreamed…
I’m ready. I’m willing. This day’s for You.
How about you, friend? How has God changed your master plan lately? What has He asked you to do that you wouldn’t have dared dream years ago? I’d love to hear.
Thanks for sharing your time with me.
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