It’s that time again.
Where I join others over at Lisa-Jo’s.
We throw caution to the wind and just write
For 5 minutes straight.
Without worrying if it’s right or not.
No editing or backtracking.
Just what our heart feels when given a prompt.
This week’s prompt:
“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height,
for I have rejected him.
The Lord does not look at the things people look at.
People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
I Sam 16:7
It will never be enough. I can spend accumulative hours cleaning, scrubbing, wiping, vacuuming, dusting, sweeping, and it will never be enough. I strive to make this place we call home a sanctuary for my hard-working husband to come back to every day. And some days I get close. Today was not one of them.
As he walks passed the fingerprinted patio door, steps over the matchbox track maze to greet me, he says “The house looks great, you must have worked hard today. Thank you.” And seals it with a kiss. I meet his gaze and realize. He sees me. He really sees me.
It seems I have had more of those days than not as of late. When I spin my wheels fierce and still do not see the tread left behind. Who knows if the cashier’s day was turned around with my smile and encouragement. Did she see Jesus in me? Am I like Him enough to change one’s perspective?
Some days it feels like I’m carrying around a holey bucket. And I keep filling it up and find it empty half way on my journey home.
But maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe I’m supposed to leave droplets of Him behind wherever I go. Maybe He enjoys the task of filling me up again. Maybe He’s not looking at the bucket anyway…but the journey. Or maybe my heart.
Father, I am but a vessel. Ready and willing to be used by You however necessary. Fill me, Lord, with You. Till I spill over. Use my holes and scars for Your glory. Turn this holey bucket into a Holy one, Father. I’m ready to see what You can do through me. Show me, Lord. Give me Your perspective.
How about you? What kind of vessel do you see yourself as? I’d love to hear.
For my 5 Minute Friday friends: I plan on taking a summer break from 5 Minute Fridays. I still hope to visit some of you as I have grown so fond of this community.
Thanks for sharing your time with me.