“And immediately the rooster crowed the second time.
Suddenly, Jesus’ words flashed through Peter’s mind:
‘Before the rooster crows twice,
you will deny three times that you even know me.’
And he broke down and wept.“
Mark 14:72 NLT
I must admit, I’m certain I’ve read this while inserting an eye-roll. Because he had been warned, face-to-face, hours before. Peter had insisted he would do no such thing, and yet, well we know what happened.
Maybe I’m the only one, but I’ve often wondered how the disciples (Peter especially since he was a bit favored) could have messed up as much as they did. I mean, they were able to look into the face of God. Doesn’t that make it easier to believe?!? (John 20:29 comes to mind)
The story of Peter’s betrayal was the last thing I read before bed the other night. And by the time the rooster of my husband’s alarm rang the next morning, I knew.
I’ve done it, too.
In fact, I’ve denied Him more than three times.
I’m so ashamed…
- When I argue and show God excuses as to why it wouldn’t be a good idea to do what He’s asked of me, I deny Him.
- When I post something about Him on my personal Facebook page and make it visible to only my “church friends,” I deny knowing Him.
- When I sat in the lunchroom and overheard conversations with a plethora of open opportunities to share my faith, I betrayed Him.
- I haven’t even told all of my acquaintances I blog about Him. Haven’t even given them a chance to respond.
I have never felt more like Peter. Why, I make him look good. For as far as we know, he never made the same mistake again. And he was facing death. Not by dying of embarrassment like myself, no. Actual we’re-going-to-need-another-cross kind of death.
Father, I’m here again, bending low, begging for your forgiveness.
And I’m asking You to provide the strength
and courage I need to proclaim You boldly.
In fact, I’m ready to begin.
I’m getting rid of my “church friends” list on Facebook. But I will continue to post those statuses. And as soon as I figure out a way to not look spammy, I will let my entire friend list know I write this little blog called Simplystriving. I’ll let them know I’m not perfect, but am striving to live the way He made me to be.
And for you, my dear readers, whom I cherish. I beg of your forgiveness, too. Please know I will strive to share things God has asked me to that I’ve previously shrugged off. Because no worldly embarrassment compares to the realization that I’ve denied Him.
When I say I’m ready to be used by Him during my morning prayer time, I’m going to add the word “fully.” Completely. All of me is what I will offer. No reservations. Nothing off-limits. No change backs.
How about you? Have you denied Him? How do you avoid being a Peter? I’d love to hear.
Thanks for sharing your time with me.
NOTE: This post is an addition to what God has shown me during my personal Lenten journey this year. You can catch up on my other posts HERE.
FOR MY FACEBOOK FRIENDS: WELCOME! Yes, it’s me. I’m so sorry it’s taken me 5 months to invite you here. Please let me know you stopped by so I can share what’s on my heart with you.