I must admit, I have grown to enjoy praying. Praising my Savior comes easy for me. Praying for my family, friends, and others is something I look forward to doing daily.
But praying for myself? That’s where I still struggle. And I’ve spent this week trying to figure out why.
I’d like to say I’m too humble. That would be an easy answer. It’s the excuse I always used while prepping for a job interview– when you’re supposed to talk about yourself. I sweat bullets. It’s not easy for me. But, really, that’s not the reason.
For humble is one thing and vulnerable is another.
And I think I fear the latter.
Oh but I’m striving to change that.
This week, while praying through Proverbs, I intentionally prayed more for myself than I normally do. For this is one fear I need to get over. I want to be vulnerable with my Savior. To freely offer my heart open wide. For that is when molding and shaping is at its finest. It’s prime. And I want to allow the artist in my Creator to shine. In me.
So while reading through the Proverbs each day, my prayers (for me) went something like this:
A gentle answer deflects anger,
but harsh words make tempers flare.
Father, this has been a tough week for me. Please help keep this verse on my mind so I remember to breathe deep and draw out those words hidden below the flares.
Those who listen to instruction will prosper;
those who trust the Lord will be joyful.
Lord, I want nothing more than to have my ears tuned to the proper instruction. May I keep my gaze on You today so I can hear what You have for me. I give this day to You, Father. You lead the way. I’ll follow. Joyfully.
A cheerful heart is good medicine,
but a broken spirit saps a person’s strength.
A truly wise person uses few words;
a person with understanding is even-tempered.
Proverbs 17:22, 27
You have blessed me with so much, Lord. More than I deserve or ever imagined. I have nothing to fear. Today, I will delight in You. Let praise be on my mind so my actions reflect You.
Rumors are dainty morsels
that sink deep into one’s heart.
Spouting off before listening to the facts
is both shameful and foolish.
A gossip goes around telling secrets,
so don’t hang around with chatterers.
Proverbs 18: 8 & 13; 20:19
Help me stay away from this temptation, Father. There’s no one worth talking about, only people worth talking to. About You.
Enthusiasm without knowledge is no good;
haste makes mistakes.
To acquire wisdom is to love oneself;
people who cherish understanding will prosper.
Sensible people control their temper;
they earn respect by overlooking wrongs.
Proverbs 19: 2, 8, 11
I want to slow down today, Lord. Reflect on You. Learn to love me. Will you help me? Just as You are helping me keep my cool this week by reminding me of these verses (like vs 11 here). Thank You, Lord. What an answer to prayer.
The Lord directs our steps,
so why try to understand everything along the way?
You know this one is a challenge for me. But I’m up for the challenge. I’ve said it all week and I’ve meant every word. You lead the way, Lord. I will follow. I’ll let you take care of the details. I’ll simply trust and obey. Joyfully. For there’s no other way…
How about you? How do you pray for you? I’d love to hear and learn from you!
Thanks for sharing your time with me.
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